Deja de llorar!

Half of you people must be thinking what does the title mean? Well I know Google Translator is a great way to figure it out. But I would like you to be patient and just bear with me on this for a while. You'll have it all figured out in just a moment.

So this is how the story goes. Since my last post, all my tests were over and I was sailing in the land of complete freedom. Please don't be carried away by the word complete in the previous sentence. You can never be set free when you know you have gruesome results coming your way. Let's imagine it this way. You're in a 6ft by 6ft box locked from the inside but fortunately you have the key. How easy! Isn't it? Nah...why do you think my situation would be that easy. The box is closed inside another bigger box. Now even if you open the lock, you're still trapped. That somehow describes my condition. You're free but technically you're still bound.

We had our high school (known as intermediate in India) graduation results coming up. Now it's different in India from other countries. How? I'll tell you how. It's conducted on an All-India basis. You give your examinations which are then sent to the respective centers to get evaluated. Results are then published shortly. I hope I'm making some sense laying out all this boozing explanation. Bear with me please!

So everyone around me was nervous even if they didn't accept it. Rumor mill was that this time around the evaluating staff had done a pretty stiff evaluation and weren't giving away marks. Another was that some examination copies had stagnated somewhere in between and hadn't reached the destination so as to get checked. But they were rumors. Before the result, I had been away at my grandma's place having some last moment fun. Because in the inside, my own gut was cracking! People come on it's natural! My uncle had come in from USA to visit his mom i.e. my grandma. He too is very strict in educational and academic matters. I was interviewed innumerable times a day as to what I'm gonna score which worsened my condition. After two days in Gehenna, I said to hell with it. So I came back home and Judgement Day arrived.

This is an excerpt from the vivid day May 23 2011. 

Trrrrrrrr.....! Shit! The alarm goes off! It's 6 in the morning. No way I'll wake up now. 

My body finally begs me to wake up at 11. Mum has a sore throat yelling at me to wake up from bed. Well I do the honors for the sake of my family. First thing that happens - my friend's dad calls me and asks,"Son, what did you score?". It comes as a bummer. I somehow end the conversation without any damage. 

Now it's time for me to finally see what I have scored. I open my laptop, type in my roll number with a thumping heartbeat. And here it is. All my hard work summed up in one small table. At second glance, the table is good. And by good I mean excellent. I scored 91%! Most satisfying feeling in the world. I can't get words to describe my feeling. So I silently turn the monitor towards mum and dad.

In the end, all my relatives and friends are pretty happy with what I've achieved with some frowns here and there. Between all this I exclaimed to one of my friend on the phone, "Deja de llorar! It'll be fine". Yes you are correct. Stop crying!

That's all for now. Do put in your views below. And again thanks for giving my blog a moment. Love you all.

This is Twoccer signing off!

Adios :P

The HOLI Bonanza

Hey friends, hope you have been in good spirits. I know and I regret the fact that I just dematerialized after my first post as if I didn't exist. Well there have been due reasons for it which I would shortly explain. First I would like to thank all the people who have given a moment to my previous post. I really appreciate it.

Let's do a step-by-step look into the days since my last post. After my previous post, the next few days had been unrealistically awesome. My stress level had been at an all-time low. My Holi had gone pretty wondrous followed by a nice family gathering which was ultimately followed by the best Math exam I had ever had.


12th graders had been eagerly waiting for Holi to direct their frustration towards something refreshing and casual. I mean my friend circle had been literally begging Father Time to accelerate towards the big day. I was like "Oh come on, why wait for the big day? We could just commence the big bang right here right now!" and they would just mockingly let it pass away. The so-called big day was pretty monotonous on the onset but went on to be one of the best big days I had ever had. Since my last post, this has been the only little dose of happiness I have had.

After Holi, it was time for the big tsunamis to take away from me the very essence of life. Yes, you have guessed it correct my friends, the tests had arrived. I had registered for the usual ones viz. IITJEE, AIEEE, UPTU, BITSAT and a rare one called ISAT.

Two roads diverged in a wood, and I --

I took the one everyone travelled by!

As the above quote goes, I had done everything a normal student would do (I had even subscribed for a quick revision course). Can you believe these bloody courses scrap you of 5-7 bucks in a month? And they say India's GDP is low. To be honest, there had been no special preparation from my part which would be visible through my disastrous results in a few weeks (but still keeping fingers crossed).

For now, I am at peace. For shortly, I would be resting in peace. There is this hollow inside me which sometimes is filled with disappointment because of my self-destruction. I threw away when things mattered the most. But I guess no good in crying over spilled milk. Huh guys? We can all just hope for the best. I mean it's as they say 'God works in mysterious ways'. Maybe there is something good lurking behind the sets for me.

I would keep you updated about my poor condition.

Here are a few pics of my Holi celebration.

Freakin' Zombies

Me (blue shirt) and my brother

A friend of mine

All my sisters loving themselves in their new color tones

Well that's me!

Till then, this is Twoccer signing off!

Cheers!